It's been so different this week, taking time off, resting, and just getting stuff done. Tomorrow I think I will start on the stack of papers in my office.... It is beyond hideous... All the bills and crap I have paid and when I see the pile... My face does this lol
BUT one thing I enjoyed today was doing these experiments with Shawn... Sometimes he is stubborn (like me) and sometimes he is right lol!
Helping him with Legos is a dousy because I MAKE him watch the instructions and follow them and count before he places them.. He is used to winging it. But I make him follow it. When we finishes it, he is beyond proud. I love seeing him light up.
Can I be real for a sec.?
I feel like I missed alot of times like today because of work, and don't get me wrong... I have to work, but if I must admit... I really don't want to lol. I have worked everyday of my life since I was 16 with NO breaks in between and to have this time... It is a blessing.
Today... I have such mom guilt for missing memories, because he is my only one... He turned 6 on the 21st and it is hitting me today that my boy is growing up so fast.💔
My prayer tonight is that I hope he knows that I would do anything I could for him, I hope I show him he is my everything, and I hope he knows that I love him with everything I have... Even though I am not always there.
Going to admit that it totally freaking sucks that it takes two incomes to make it these days... And while I know it is the times... I still don't like it. Lol 😒😒
So today I feel kind of down... Happy too... Happy that he was so joyful today, but down that I see what I have been missing. 😞
So tomorrow I will cherish another day with him and going forward before I head back to work in December... Going to soak this up like never before my peeps... Because this is a HUGE blessing and prayer answered for me! 💜 💜
If you are a working mom, do you ever feel mom guilt too? 🤔