Hey YOU! Welcome to my page! My name is Rebecca Miller! I made this website to share my journey with you and I hope that you find it motivating, inspiring, and kick butt! Just saying! ;)
I used to be a really fit gal who was into exercise, started to run, and was about 140 lbs. about 10 years ago. Until one day (June 6, 2006 - I am sorry I don't forget a date like that!!), I had started getting severe abdominal pain at work, at which one point I thought I was going to die and had to leave. I was soooo scared, because I have never experienced this type of pain before. It was crippling!
I called my sister, who is my best friend and rock, and told her I was dying. I straight up believed it! She rushed me to the ER, where they ended up performing an appendectomy on me, only to realize that wasn't my problem. My fallopian tube had got twisted somehow and got really enlarged, like as big as a softball, and it had gangrene in it. YIKES!! Talk about being lucky! The doctors said if it had burst I would have died.
So when they told me to take it easy for 6 weeks, that is all it took for me to become super LAZY! I really loved not doing anything and I became a victim to fast food because it was easy and convenient.
My favorite?? Husson's Pizza - 18" size, Dairy Queen blizzards, and Caramello candy bars to be exact! I would eat them religiously and not just a slice here and there...no I am talking like 7-10 slices in a setting, plus the blizzard, plus the candy bar! I know! I know! Totally insane!
I don't care what they say...I was freaking addicted to junk food and I LOVED IT! I couldn't wait to get my hands back on it! I would scarf it down like nobodies business and would always be looking for my next chocolate fix!
It got so bad that I actually hid 36 candy bars from my husband in our spare bedroom so I could eat them at night when he went to sleep for work. Guess what? I polished those puppies off in a week! Disgusting?? YEP! I couldn't help it - Or at least I believed that!
THE JUNK FOOD RULED MY LIFE....AND I LET IT!!!
I had no intention of gaining weight...but it happened...slowly...like 5 lbs. here and there and before I knew it...I was 60 lbs. overweight! At my heaviest I was 215 lbs. :( I felt tired all the time, and I was still wearing my maternity clothes after the birth of my son, Shawn - so they just grew with me. In fact, I had no idea I had gotten that big because I didn't have a full body mirror. I wanted change so badly! I always felt my belly looked like a giant "beer gut" or a "bowling ball". I made jokes about it, but deep down I really wanted it gone. I hated fitting in clothes and I hated people asking me how far along I was. That really got old and actually made me more sad. So I definitely wanted change, but I had no idea where to begin. At the time, I had "accepted" what I looked like to be my fate, because that was my comfort zone. When I would look in the mirror and get depressed, I would eat more chocolate, then felt guilty, eat more, and more, and more! So YES it was a vicious cycle!
This day was so rough....
It wasn't until my sister asked me to be her maid of honor in her wedding that made me take notice of my weight. We went dress shopping and at the time, I was super excited and happy to be spending the day with my sister. YAY! A girl's day out!
We get there and I start pulling dresses off the rack "thinking" they will fit. Once in the dressing room, I found out that it wasn't the case. I had to go all the way up to a size 18-20 and they still wasn't zipping up! I was devastated, humiliated, and honestly disgusted with myself. GRRRR I was soooo mad at ME!!! How did I get like this?? WHY did I let this happen??? All these questions raced in my brain and I then I started to worry how I would look at my sister's wedding! OH GEEZ!!!
The wedding photos are forever!!!!! In my mind, I was going to look horrible and I didn't want that for ME or my sister's wedding! This was her day and I wanted to make her proud. Honestly though, she loves me no matter what and will always be there for me. That was me just being mean to ME! Not cool! (I know this now!) That was my main struggle though - self doubt, fear of failing, and I was a PRO at making excuses!
The lady working the shop told me "Honey, there is no bigger size for you." Pure devastation right there!!!! I was totally mortified and pissed!! So I left with my sister...feeling depressed inside but trying to hide it!
We later found a dress that everyone seemed to like...one problem....The highest it would go up to was a size 16. YIKES!! Oh no....sheer panic set in, but this was my wake up call to get with it. My sister said, "You can lose the weight before the wedding". She always has been there for me and I owe her credit for believing in me to start up my coaching business, share my story, and help others along the way.
What did my future look like?
But guess what?? I still did nothing about my weight even after the whole depressed feeling of the dress. It wasn't until I blacked out at work that made me change my tune. My sugar was so high because I ate chocolate all the time!! I am sorry you don't eat that much junk food like I was and not have consequences. Right then... I mean seriously right then was when it hit me like a ton of bricks. "Rebecca....If you keep up these bad eating habits and laziness then where will you be for your son in 5-10 years?? Are you going to keep up with him when he plays outside?? What if he gets away from you...can you catch him without becoming majorly out of breath??" All these things raced through my mind, but the one that stood out the most was my grandma. She had diabetes and lost both of her legs because of it. I was headed in that direction if I didn't take a stand.
I pictured myself if something similar were to happen to me. Of course you can have a life without limbs, but I didn't want that for my future - especially if it was something I could avoid! I thought about trying to run with Shawn and all I felt was sadness, anger, and fear. Sadness because Shawn wouldn't have a mommy that could do other things like the other kids moms. Anger because I let this happen to me...nobody shoveled the food down my throat - I DID!!! Fear...I was terrified that I would lose my legs.
Finally a mindset change...
So yes...I took action then, I got with my coach, and ordered a program that saved my entire life! It taught me portion control with real food and healthy nutrition. It taught me to exercise for at least 30 minutes a day to help build your muscles and get toned, which I did everything at home. I didn't have time to spare driving to the gym, etc. Plus I didn't like to be stared at so forget that crap! LOL The support my coach supplied me with was astounding! Most importantly, the superfoods! Oh where oh where would I be without my superfoods!
It has seriously helped with my digestive system and my junk food cravings. Before it, I didn't go but once a month to the bathroom - TMI?? Sorry, but it is the truth! Talk about misery, pain, and the bloat! I was constantly on laxatives and when I finally build up the courage to go to the doctor, I was told it was diverticulosis. They wanted me to be on Metamucil for the rest of my life....YUCK!!! My first thought?? That stuff is for old people!!!! Now I can say I go everyday and I am in the best shape of my life! I am currently down 40 lbs. and 26.5 inches and I weigh 155 lbs. and the best part it only took me 9 months to get it off and over a year in and I am still keeping it off!! I did it the safe, healthy way - through proper nutrition, portion control, exercise, support from my coach, and my superfood health shake!
In my first 21 days I lost 12 lbs. and it inspired me to keep moving! I had a dress to fit in! Am I right?? Wanna know the best part? I returned that size 16 dress to get a size 14! BOOM - This chick did it! I rocked her wedding photos and I felt like I had the confidence to keep going. I had such huge success with my journey, that I have decided to help others as well. I know how I felt before and what I feel now. If I can help someone else get out of the "funk" they are living in than I have done my job.
This was all of my best friends at Pauline's wedding...we have Amanda, Frances, my sister Pauline, and me on the end! My hard work paid off! These girls are my tribe...they are soooo much fun to be around and we all went to high school together...Oh how I love them!
What am I like now?
I am more energetic, happy, and confident now that the weight is gone! I am running and playing with my son, and fitting in clothes that I would never buy before because I didn't want to feel uncomfortable. Not anymore! I am not a slave to the junk food and it feels freaking incredible! I am doing things now I would have never even attempted to do before - Have you ever heard of a burpee?? What about lifting heavy weights? Guess what?!? This chick is doing all that and more...I even ran around the house chasing Shawn and he told me was tired, but I wasn't! YES!! #momwin! LOL That to me is something amazing...to feel empowered by just playing with your kid, without feeling like your are dying! I wish I could go back to the girl who was making excuses and told myself to get with it sooner! What the heck was I waiting for? I feel incredible now and I would NEVER change that for anything!! Living life to the fullest is where it is at folks!
I know there are tons of fad diets out there, but this is legit! This is a lifestyle change not something that is so restrictive that you can't have carbs, etc. I still eat carbs, but in the right portions! My sugar is regular now and I don't have any more blackouts - Another non-scale victory win!
So yes! I am saying a girl who was addicted to junk food, who hated her veggies, and was lazy for 10 years, changed her ways by changing her mindset and attitude, and so can you! NO EXCUSES!
I love that you came to my page! I want you to know that you don't have to be alone in your journey. There will be daily struggles but just know that you are worth it and deserve to be happy. Don't waste 10 years like I did and sit back and do nothing. Take a stand for YOU, your health, and your family who loves you so dearly! Get ready because your little one wants to play - can you keep up??
Remember with GOD...anything is possible! Let me help you find your way...I am always here to chat and I am just an email away!
Many Thanks Too...
Tonya Van Fossen for all of her GORGEOUS professional photos! This woman rocks! Love her work and her fun style! Always a great time with Tonya!
My husband, Tony, who watched our son while I worked out, helped me with our meals and overall was supportive of my journey and still is. You have given me 14 wonderful years with you and I can't wait to have many more with you! I love you babe!
My sister, Pauline, this girl is my ROCK! She is seriously my best friend and has always believed in me no matter what. We laugh, we cry, and she lets me be my crazy self. Thank you so much Pauline for believing in me and what I do. You are an amazing sister and best friend!
My coach, Cheryl! This woman has forever changed my life...we met online and I hope to meet her one day...LOL crazy how we do that right? She offers me support and motivated me the whole time during my journey. Her posts and her inspirational words kept me going through the tough times.
My parents, Jackie and Sue....WOW just WOW! They have taught me right and wrong and have loved me no matter what. They raised me in church and show me to always be kind and caring towards others.
What can I say...I am a blessed woman with tons of people in my life who love and care for me.